Attack of Jealousy

I am not normally a jealous person. But last night I got jealous. And I hate it when I have emotions that I cannot control, and rationally know that i shouldnt be having.

Torture Garden: Outfit decided

Ok this is the deal: I have a kimono = japanese. It is satiny material, base colour of a turquoise blue and very flamboyant, and ankle length. Underneath this I am planning to wear gold sandals (trust me, they look better than they sound, just a thick section across top of foot), very very small gold hot pants, a diesel top that adrian gave to me which is white cotton, with chiffon and lace cut out sections on the front, so worn with no underwear you can see my nipple piercing. And then do something amazing and attempting to be oriental with my hair. I tired it out last night, and if I loop around sections of my hair then pin them up, it looks quite impressive. I will try and take pics of the final result !

Torture Garden : Japanese Theme

I am going to Torture Garden on friday night, and there is a Japanese theme. Dress Code:
Geisha + Manga + Schoolgirl + Kimono + Kamikaze + sumb
Kendo + Ninja + Anime + Sailor Moon + Hello Kitty + Mishima
etc etc !!

Now this should inspire all sorts of possibilities, which it does, except how to be both Japanese and sexy and fetish all at the same time, especially when I have long blonde hair, blue eyes, and fair from a slight japanese figure ! Now there is an interesting challenge. Or I could just sod it and just go in straightforward rubber/leather kinky gear. Sigh, the decisions of life for a girl on a night out to Torture Garden ....

Last thought of the day
Life sometimes feels like juggling balls, and always desperately trying not to drop a single ball, even though at times you feel like falling to the ground and letting the balls tumble around you. Every now and then it all goes really smoothly and you smile to yourself and enjoy it happening. Other times you just madly worry as to what will happen if you let one drop, or maybe even all of them and have to start all over again. Sometimes someone throws you a new ball and you just focus on that one for a while.

Overriding thought of the day:

I miss my John. Every minute I am not with him I miss him. Is that sad ? pathetic ? romantic ? any others ? I dont know, and I dont say that for any other reason than it is true. So true it almost hurts.

This is using WinWAP v3.0 a wml browser on PC. So now although I am using waplogger I dont have to use a poxy phone keypad. Although obviously I could have just used a standard HTML browser as per normal .... but where is the interest in that . OK, I am just having a play using all the 101 emulators that I have on my computer. And that is for work rather than just spare time hobbies before anyone thinks I am just completely 100% geekness !

So there I was doing some testing on Sky TV and I flick back to the TV channel, which happened to be BBC News 24. And I am faced with someone I was at school with reading out the weather ! I had heard that she was now doing this, but it was still kind of strange to see someone I used to know pretty well appearing in front of me in such a completely different context. Also found out she has a profile on the BBC site. Small, small world ...

Last blog was sent using blogger.com's latest technology called "Waplogger", enabling you to post blogs using a WAP enabled device. Now seeing as 'devices' are a main part of my job new applications such as this interest me. I am a geek, I admit it, or maybe a little bit anyway. Although if anyone else says it, woe betide them ! The actual practical usefulness of this technology is another issue though, I mean how much could anyone actually bear to write on a phone keypad ? But then maybe with a Palm or other such device where you are not having to use a phone keypad and have a more efficient method of writing out your blog. But then maybe you are travelling around and want to occasionally post blogs, and have no other way you can do it. Ok, rapidly falling into depths of geekdom and boredom now ... back to work.

first post from mobile .!

Have put up online photos of me dressed ready to go to the "The Sex Maniacs Ball" a few weeks ago. I will try and do a few more pages with relevant photos, or post up photos to accompany entries to make this a more interesting read for you. You may also want to see some general photos of me if you dont actually know me in person and like me are just nosey to see the person you are reading about !

Life since last blog entry:

Lots of work. Including working till about 11pm on thursday evening, and then amazingly feeling amazingly better on fridary morning. Probably helped by copious quantities of Pizza on thursday evening at work being about the first decent thing I had had to eat for days due to painful throat and feeling shitty. So came bouncing into work on friday, also helped by the fact that I was seeing John on friday evening so obviously something to look forward to. Weekend consisted of lots of fun with John (use your imagination !), lots of vodka (as part of a drinking game called pink elephants .... dont ask !), lots of driving (about 7 or 8 hours in total I guess), lots of sleeping and generally having a good time. And now it is mondya morning and back to work and the real world. Oh and I got back home last night to get a phone call saying my horse is hopping lame .... turns out nothing too serious, just tedious and more vets bills. Guess it is all good practice for if I have children one day !